April 17, 2014


I regret not telling you exactly how I felt when you needed to hear it. When you left, I was completely shattered. I was so scared of screwing things up and losing you that I kept you at arms length, which ultimately pushed you away. I need you more than you will ever know. I wish I could say "needed," but it's been many months and I still think of you and feel that wretched pain every single day. I wish you could feel the physical pain and sickness I'm enduring, but at the same time, I would never wish these feelings on anyone. You were my comfort and the one person who mattered most to me. No matter what was going on in my life, my worries immediately melted as soon as you were near and you were the first person I needed to share every excitement with. I miss the way you were able to tell me all that was bothering you and I could just listen and help ease your worries. I miss holding you close and having that feeling that with you everything was the way it should be. Now those feelings only exist in my dreams. I hate waking up in the morning and realizing everything is still in pieces. I wish I could go back to sleep and feel that everything is alright again. I regret not saying something when you started distancing yourself from me. I regret just nodding my head and taking it when you ended things. You said you didn't know why it had to end and I was the perfect person for you. Those words echoed in my head every single day. I wish I would have asked you to stay and talk to me about what was going through your mind and try to work things out. I can't stand the feelings I'm left with. I've tried to find someone else, but I'm not interested in someone else. I want you. I want a second chance because you are the person I never thought I would need, but ended up being all that I've ever wanted. I know you're burdened by your past and the mistakes you've made, but you are perfect. In my eyes you are perfect. When we were together, not a day went by that I didn't feel privileged to have you by my side. I felt so undeserving of everything you had to offer. I regret not doing something when I saw the hurt on your face when you talked to me, when you decided to leave. I wanted to take that pain away, but I was in such shock I didn't know how. I would give anything to have you back in my life. If I lost everything, but still had you, life would still be worth living. Since you've been gone, nothing matters anymore. I'm numb to everything because you're not there to share it with. I wish, somehow, that this post would get to you and you could see just how much you mean to me. I pray for you often and I know someday this will all make sense, whether we end up together or not. Until those reasons are made known to me, I'll just have to deal with the gut-wrenching pain and pray that you're happy.

April 16, 2014

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I regret ever getting involved in the sex trade ring. I did not know what I was getting myself into. I thought it would be fun to explore, I did not realize that the end result would put my life in danger when I left. I regret it all.

April 15, 2014


I regret not leaving my hometown immediately after graduating from college and pursuing the career I wanted all my life. I let people that were jealous of my looks and talent (because they didn't have much of either)convince me that I would never make it in big,bad New York City. I let a relative that lived in NYC convince me that it was a horrible place where people were getting murdered as soon as they stepped outside their doors! Unfortunately,I trusted the wrong people and listened to the wrong people. I finally made it to New York,about ten years too late. I was never able to make the career happen in the way that I wanted and consequently,gave up. I will always regret not putting my dreams and goals ahead of anybody else's opinions. If I had it to do all over again,I'd do it all differently. Well,it's too late now,but at least I still have my health and a semblance of my looks and a good marriage. Female 50+

April 14, 2014


    I am so sorry. I regret leaving you, calling off our wedding for a man 18 years older just weeks before our wedding.
    I regret falling in love with a fantasy. I wish that I had been honest and true and not turned my back on your 10 years of love and devotion to us.
    I heard that you'll be married soon, and I'm sure that your dreams have come true.
    I wish I had known then what I know now.
    You were my love, my first love, my only love. It's been four going on five years and the pain is still real. What I selfish fool I was. It hurts and I think of you everyday. Time flies, but I remember those nights, guessing planets from stars. Bound by surprise of the intensity of that love. I'll love you forever. Regrets and mistakes are memories now. I wish you a lifetime of love and peace. I'm am so sorry for the pain I must have caused you. It hurts to know that you will continue and love another. Nothing will ever compare to you and your love. I am so sorry and she is so lucky. May God bless her, you and your love for each other.

April 13, 2014


I regret that I have let myself be overweight all my life. And not doing anything about it until now. I am 41 and am smaller than I have ever been. I think about what I have missed out on all these years. I also regret being so co dependent and thinking that I had to have a man to make me happy. I wish I could have been more independant in my younger years. I let men walk all over me and treat me any way they wanted. I just wish I could have stood up for myself.

April 12, 2014


 I regret listening to my mother and divorcing you when you needed me most. I should have stood by you through your difficult times. Maybe I could have helped save your life if I would have stayed. I still loved you when I left and I still love you now and will never get to tell you. Female, 41

April 11, 2014


I regret chasing girls my underclassmen years instead of books.

April 10, 2014


I regret being a weak person since childhood and doing things to win over my family's love rather than fulfilling my own dreams. I regret letting fear leading me to accept to have an abortion that I never wanted to have. I regret that it took me losing a child to learn that you need to stick up for what you believe in no matter what, even if you end up alone. At the same time, I think if I hadn't had it, I wouldn't have my baby boy today, and that causes mixed feelings for me. I regret not being able to forgive myself, and I regret never meeting that baby that I was carrying and that I loved so much, because no one believed I could do it and I didn't believe in myself, because I'm a good mum now and I know I can...

Mummy loves you always xxx

April 9, 2014


I regret every moment that passes by that I open my mouth to tell you the truth and find no words will come out. You tell me I need to be patient with my best friend since she was raped last year. You often tell me that it is hard to imagine what she must be going through right now. I nod and tell you she must be going through hell, when deep inside I know exactly what it feels like. Mom, I wish so badly I could tell you, tell you what happened to me four years ago. I can't bring myself to break your heart. What good will that do if the damage is already done? Instead, I have kept it to myself.
The weight of this secret smothers me everyday, but I have learned to conceal it. I pretended for 3 years that it never happened. And when I saw her go through the same thing last year, it was like it triggered something inside of me. I fell to pieces. The nightmares started becoming more frequent. I couldn't eat. I couldn't sleep. I lost so much weight the doctors didn't know what to do. At the time, I didn't realize what was happening inside my own mind. But looking back now, I realize I was being forced to face the truth of that night and I couldn't physically deal with it.
I wish everyday that I could tell you. I have tried so many times. But I love you too much. I'm trying to be strong, to move past this but I feel depression overtaking me. I feel so incredibly alone in this, but I know I will die with this secret buried deep inside my heart. For now, I pretend these words are to you and without consequences. Mom, I understand the hell she is going through because I have lived it every day since the night I was raped.