December 6, 2013
My biggest regret is not being able to put myself aside. I was unable to ignore my differences with my sister and missed the opportunity to spend the last moments of life with my father. I didn't know that it would be the end. I would do it all different if I could, but I can't. I loved you Dad with all my heart.
December 5, 2013
I regret that we met and fell in love. You were supposed to be the one. We were supposed to marry, have babies together and grow old together. We both did those things, only with other people. I know we love our respective spouses and our children, but I still miss you and always will.
December 4, 2013
The things i regret most...not being a kid. I always thought of others and never myself, always thought i had to think of myself last. And when i also regret not being strong enough to stand up and be myself. For many years ive listened to family and friends and whatever they wanted, beacause of my stupid heart ive always hid in the darkness, i never wanted to dissapoint anyone. All the while ive only wanted to be around them, thinking to myself that being with them i dont hav to be alone i dont hav to suffer alone ill always hav them with me. But in reality they only used me and took advantadge. I was blind.
December 3, 2013
I deeply regret hurting someone who meant a lot to me. I wish I could have just told him how much I cared for him. Instead I felt fearful and overwhelmed so without an explanation I just let him think that I didn't want to be with him mostly by being standoffish. It felt like my subconscious reaction but I don't know why I didn't explain to him that it had nothing to do with him, that I tremendously liked everything about him but I just felt too in pieces to be with anyone then. It was high school and he would have been my first relationship. I wanted my first everything to be him so much and I guess that's why I feel at such a standstill in life. Because it could have all fallen into place so perfectly and now I don't really want anyone else. My biggest regret isn't not having him but that he thought I didn't want him and I think I tore him up inside.
December 2, 2013
I regret who I turned out to be. My childhood was not a good one, and one that most people that have known for a long time would never know as I don't discuss it. I have and continue to use my past and lack of nurturing as an excuse for who I have become, I am cold and at times I feel like I have so much love to give. I have stolen, cheated and am full of anger and sometimes so sad. In my relationships I tend to give all my love to the that person while in my head knowing too well that I will either push them away or they will walk away. I am beginning to think that I don't know what love is and that in my subconscious I don't really deserve it. I am a product of my past and I don't like that I am where I am today, because that's what I believe. I regret never letting go of the hurt that has shaped who I am.
December 1, 2013
My husband and his ex mistress are perfect for each other. I didn't see it then. Maybe I was truly blind to it. Maybe I denied it. I don't know. I do know that now, more than ever I know they were perfect for each other. I won't ever be enough for my husband because we're too different. I think I may have broken up a great relationship. I regret fighting for my marriage.
November 30, 2013
I regret never having told my father that I loved him. I regret never having told him that I appreciated the many years of hard work he must have endured to make sure that we had the necessities. We were never close but I know that he loved me. He just never knew how to tell me. The apple never falls far from the tree.
November 29, 2013
I regret that I missed all of the Red Flags of my wife's affair. I regret when I had a idea, I let it slide...When I found out and she confessed, I regret not leaving at that moment..I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion not proof to destroy it. I regret asking so much detail of her affair...be careful what you ask for...it may be told to you! I now have movies of her and him in my mind that will play for eternity. I regret not filing for divorce sooner. I regret not being the type of person to hurt her back..and most of all I'm left with the aftermath and she just moves on.
November 28, 2013
November 27, 2013
I regret causing the early death of a patient. I missed the obvious signs and symptoms of a bowel obstruction. This person had not had a bowel movement in 12 days and was vomiting. They were recently diagnosed as palliative, but would not have died for months. I regret being so nervous about admitting this palliative person that I focused on the wrong things. I regret not having extra training which would gave eased my anxiety so I could have focused on her symptoms and not my admission or worrying how she felt about her new diagnosis. I listened to a colleague who stated they had suggested a laxative which I suggested to the patient as well. I regret deferring to this comment when the person did not know the situation and would have undoubtedly recommended something different had she known. I regret not being more confident and getting wrapped up in worry so I miss the obvious. I regret not being comfortable with the standard bowel protocol and not jumping to a more drastic course of action. I regret not knowing that I could have called the palliative on call doctor. I was even 3 hours late getting off work doing the paperwork for this patient spinning my wheels worrying, but I did not come to the right conclusion, nor take the right course of action. Even though I did not know what to do, I should have called a doctor, who would have cued further assessment or given me a logical course of action. I regret the life that is gone and the family that never got to say goodbye. I regret that this keeps me up at night, and I haven't figured out a way to come to terms with this or forget it.