October 17, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 17, 2014

To the kid who was being bullied on the street today.

I regret not stopping and helping you out. I wish I had an excuse but I don't, my friend was on her phone and she didn't even notice, but I did. And I did nothing. I just stared at the two kids hitting and kicking you while you were struggling. As they ran pass me laughing, the thought of catching them and asking them what the hell they were doing crossed my head. But they were laughing and the thought of maybe they were just plaing around came up. I thought I was right. But then I looked at you, you got up, put you shoe back on and just walked pass me looking as sad as ever. I was supposed to help you and I know that, i'm sorry that the only person on the street who noticed was a clueless idiot who hesitated too much. I am truely sorry and i feel really bad about it.
I am the kind of person who makes this world a bad place. We don't need people like me here.
I always thought when i'd see a person being bullied, i'd step up, but I honestly don't know what happend today.

"i should've done something, i should've done something, i should've done something "

I wish I did.

F, 16.

October 16, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 16, 2014

Dad I regret not calling 911 as soon as you told me you had a hard time breathing which happened the 1st time you had your heart attack when you where by yourself outside as usual working hard and you called 911 all on your own and you survived which was a miracle cause the dr said you where dead. I keep playing that moment in my head when you came from working out on the yard yelling my name around 10:50 am 10/09/14 and i told you i was in the living room with my 7 month old baby boy. You sat down on the sofa covered in sweat telling me to fan you cause you can't breath. Then i went to my room got my fan and put it in front of you hoping it'll help. Then i saw you couldn't get comfortable still trying to breath. I ran to my room again to get my laptop and take to the living room where i looked up heart attack symptoms i realized discomfort and shortness in breath. I started calling 911 at 11am you said ok call 911. I gave my address and followed instructions such as ask you questions like are you feeling any pain in your chest,arms,dizzy,and you said only in your throat. You passed out all the sudden and i told the operator what happened. He told me to get you on the floor, so my adrenaline kicked in and i lifted your 230lb body up and placed you on the floor and tilted your head to help you breath like the operator told me to do. Once you stopped and i told him what happened he said perform CPR which i did and counted with him til the 4 paramedics arrived at 11:12am i let them in they took over bumping into everything and instead of them coming in 1st they tried bringing in the stretcher 1st and you still needed cpr. Then i went to wake my husband and he took our scared baby out of his bouncer who wasn't crying just eyes and mouth wide opened. They keep asking me the same questions over and over wasting time and they were outside in the truck til 11:25 am in the truck. Then once you and i arrived to the hospital which felt like 20 minutes later like they gave up cause they stopped at every red light. Once you where in the trauma room a few minutes later the dr came out and she said you didn't make it. I instantly blamed myself and regret not saying my goodbyes how much i love you so much. Which i didn't cause you are such a strong man i believed you would make it like you did with the 1st heart attack. Now am thinking if i had a second chance i would have woke up my husband to help me as soon as you had trouble breathing. Then I wouldn't have panicked and handled the situation alone and you might have survived!
25 yr. old Female

October 14, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 14, 2014

I regret living a party lifestyle and neglecting my child. I was only 20 and wanted to live a carefree life. I regret choosing to leave him with his grandparents knowing they were too old to properly take care of a three year old. His drowning will forever weigh on my conscience. I regret using his death as an excuse to drink even more and neglect my other two children also as a consequence.
Now I can't silence my thoughts, I have even tried drugs and sex with strangers to dull the pain and guilt I feel. I have tried hurting other people but that just added to my pain and disgust. I tried killing myself but couldn't. Now I have nowhere else to go. I regret the selfish choices I made. I wish I could turn back the clock.

October 13, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 13, 20114

I regret pushing you into getting an abortion 30 years ago. I was young and was going to marry my high school sweetheart who was also pregnant with my son.

Now I'm old and regret my coldness towards you. I regret my part in destroying the life we created.
I couldn't see my pregnant fiancee accept my cheating as well as a baby on the way with you, my mistress. Marrying her would've advanced my career. I made a selfish decision. I didn't love her.
Our baby would've been all grown up by now, the same age as my son. He would've had a brother or sister.
I am sorry. I should have acted like a man. I am a coward. I think of him/her often and I deeply regret the mistake I made. There is a hole in my life.

I try to find you on the internet to tell you how sorry I am. My marriage didn't work out either.

M, 52

October 12, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 12, 2014

I regret not being capable of saving my son. I regret believing in my mind what my heart didn't believe. I regret being a coward. I regret allowing me fears to leave me frozen with regret. I regret that I will do it again. I regret it all.

October 11, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 11, 2014

I regret taking my wife back after cheating on me the first time, only to have it done to me again and again. I loved her like there was no tomorrow. She saw that and I let her take advantage of it.

October 10, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 10, 2014

My regret is that I didnt know how to show affection to and to appreciate the love of my life. I was so insecure with myself that I couldnt believe anyone could love me as much as you said you did. Daf you were the best thing that ever happened to me and I thought we would be together forever. I still love you and always will even though we put each other through hell. Neither of us ever learned to communicate with each other or be equal and that was our downfall. Hurtful things were said and done and our relationship is beyond repair now... I love you Daf.. I truly do and i regret never knowing how to express it to you. I never cheated on you even if you dont believe it....  I hope you find the person that will help you change and be happy, as much as I wanted that to be me, it wasnt meant to be.. I regret everything I put you through because you didnt deserve any of it..i hate myself for all the things I said to you.. I will live with regret forever. I deserved everything that happened to me, I know and accept it.. I wont forget you or what you taught me.. love- CV

October 9, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 9, 2014

I regret that I have no reason to live. Actually, I feel a dull pain (sometimes a much worse pain) where that regret should be. I have gotten a wide assortment of treatments and medicines for many years, but nothing has worked. I have no children because I hate children (too much screaming and vomiting), and also because having me for a mother is way too much to heap on a person. Sure, I have other loved ones, but I've gotten to a point where love is not enough to justify survival. Besides, some of those so-called loved ones contributed to the state I'm in. Similarly, I see organized religion as corruption and lies (I was raised in a devoutly Catholic household), so there's nothing there to cling to. Can someone explain to me why existence is desirable and good and should continue? Why should I not kill myself? (Any replies, if there are any, that have words like "Jesus" in them will be skipped over. The religious crowd tends to be horrific writers anyway, so I might have to because of unreadability.)

October 8, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 8, 2014

My most regret in life is an affair I had which has long been over about 10 years ago, My husband and I got back together after the affair, My husband loves me and I think that is what is the hardest part of all. This is a regret that slaps me in the face everyday of my life. I have begged God's forgiveness as well as my family. I am sure without a doubt they have. My problem is I can't. I hate what I did, hate what it made me, hate myself, hate the very thought of it. My advice to anyone who thinks about it to look at yourself real hard because this is a horrible thing to carry for the rest of your life. I cry a lot even after all these years. Every day of my life I beg God to take this burden. I isolate myself from the shame even from people who don't know what I have done but feel like I have whore branded on my forehead.So far in life I just hide inside myself. Please people don't do this. I am a female, 57 yrs old

October 7, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: October 7, 2014

I regret that after loving you for 14 years, I believed you when you finally said you loved me. It turned out you only said that because of the money I inherited. And you ran like a rabbit when the going got tough.