January 24, 2015
January 23, 2015
January 22, 2015
I regret the way I unknowingly treated my mom the day she suddenly passed away. She told me to get my dad and I kind of blew it off, only to find her having a heart attack a few minutes later. What if I could have saved her? Did my actions change everyone's lives because I didn't act?
January 21, 2015
I was 18 (super conservative Christian) when I met the love of my life at a Baptist Christian Camp. He annoyed me at first, and definitely pushed too hard to be with me. He wasn't the type that my mom would like, so I didn't pay him any mind..totally friend zoned him. Until I found myself falling in love with him. It was the first time I felt like I could ever care about someone that didn't mean my ticket out of my mom's house. I did so many stupid things, very inexperienced. I realized way too late that I was actually in love.. like after we'd broken up. He was the one. This was 10 years ago.. and I still think about him. I have idea why I loved him the way I did. I have no idea why it took me so long to realize that I loved him. I have no idea why I couldn't just move on like he did within just a few short months. I desperately wanted a second chance, but he moved on from me so quickly, not that I blame him. I don't know what made him the one.. or why I still love him the way I do. I love my husband, and I want to spend the rest of my life with him. Yet, in another life, I could love My ex for the rest of my life, walk by his side, be his best friend.. He loved me once that way too. We still talk. We've kept in touch for 10 years, because deep down, I think he still loves me too. Yet, neither of us want to walk away from our families, friends and spouses. I guess sometimes You can find the one, but not spend the rest of your life beside them. I guess I'll have to settle for "just talking" to have him in my life.. I don't want to live in a world where he isn't there. I will always play second fiddle to his wife, or maybe deep down, it's the other way around. Either way. I for forever will have 2 loves of my life.
January 20, 2015
I regret not having the strength to stand up to my mother when she said bad things about you . She knew you and i were in love but she did everything in her power to keep me away from you . True enough I was fifteen but she knew my heart . I Never forgot you even though u left to go the navy when u graduated from high school . I was so mad at you for not writing me as much as i thought you could have, only three letters in four years. Maybe you thought the situation was hopeless . so i went on with my life . and then running into you at college you wondered why I was so distant . . I was so mad and so disappointed in you ,but I never stopped loving you . And now you are married and i am divorced and i only see you when you can get away from your wife. That leaves me alone a lot. I just regret leaving here to marry a man i never should have because I didn't love him the way i should have because it was always you in the way . He didn't deserve my lack of love but it wasnt his fault. Now i sit home and wonder what if . . Now I look forward to the bits and pieces of your time that i get as if its the best I can do .
January 19, 2015
I regret letting an STD that I got in high school hold me back from letting myself get close with any guy for three years. Once I finally got the courage to tell a guy that I really liked, he didn't care at all and now we've been dating for three years. I never thought I'd ever be in a relationship the rest of my life. I thought no one would ever love me because of a stupid STD.
January 18, 2015
January 17, 2015
January 16, 2015
My Dad was killed in a car accident, and the morning he left he asked me if I wanted him to stay home for the day. I told him no, and found out that afternoon he was gone. I still wonder how things would be different if he had stayed home with me that day.