November 24, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 24, 2014

I have lots of secret regrets, but the biggest one was of such atomic proportions that its mushroom cloud continues to hang above my head and rain down nuclear fallout. I cannot even speak of it. I am 55 years old and I want to go home.

November 23, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 23, 2014

I regret I ended a friendship with my best friend because of her drug problem and her choice of friends. I also was involved in a relationship that she became jealous over because I spent my weekends with him, instead of her. We argued and were mad at each other more than we were friends and it just became too stressful for me to have her as a friend. She didn't care about me anymore. I miss her.

November 22, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 22, 2014

I regret ever meeting you. I regret moving across the country to be with you even though I knew you were married. I regret thinking that you truthfully wanted to be with me, even though you continued to go home to your wife. I regret having aborted our baby, so you could have your money and your marriage. I regret still being stupid enough to sleep with you, even after I met a wonderful man. I regret hurting that wonderful man for two years while you and I continued to sleep together behind his back. You took advantage of my state of mind, just to get laid, even through both of my pregnancies. I regret every single minute of my life that I was too stupid to cut you out of. 25/Female

November 21, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 21, 2014

My secret regret is that my mom died in May 2010, she had been very sick for many years. My whole life I never saw her cry, except the last few years of her life when her pain and emotions over the pain got the best of her. About 8 weeks before she died she started calling and begging me to spend time with her, crying even. I had just seperated from my husband and was in a new relationship, and for the most part my time was spent at work, with my kids, and my new boyfriend. I stopped making her my number one priority. She died, wanting to spend more time with me. Wanting to have a girls movie day. I didn't make the time for her, I didn't know our time was so limited. I saw her the day before she died, and I didn't even hug her goodbye. Being selfish in her final months is my biggest regret. Not a day goes by that I don't hate myself for not keeping her my number one. I knew she was sick, I knew she needed me. I regret the last 3 months of her life everyday.

November 20, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 20, 2014

My biggest regret is not believing in myself when I had the chance to chase my dreams. I gave up and I settled. Now I am 23, married and with 2 kids. My dreams are now (and forever) on the back burner. I look at another man and think "should I have stayed with you?"
I always felt like people who told me I could be something real were lying to me. And now I realize they were trying to help me.

November 19, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 19, 2014

The biggest regret of my life was the college that I chose. I was the "Player of the Year" over current 76ers Assistant Coach and friend, Aaron McKie. Former N.B.A. player Rasheed Wallace was a teammate of his as well who was a contender for the honor as well. Anyway, My dream was to play in the N.B.A. and my college experience was horrible in connection to my coach. Before the season of my freshman year, we had to fill out a questionnaire and one of the questions was, "Where do you see yourself in five years?" I answered in the N.B.A. and it seemed like after that my coach had committed himself to making me feel that I was not good enough. He even told me to my face that I was not good enough to go to a bigger school. I average 30 points a game in high school and went to the school in order to be a big fish in a little pond. My coach would tell me to just focus on your education and not playing basketball at the next level. I did end up playing professionally overseas in Europe and Asia but overseas was not my dream but instead the N.B.A. was.

I could not watch college basketball for about 15 years and even watching the N.B.A. tournament (In which I played in 2x during my college career) this year kind of made me depressed to the point of isolating myself, sometimes from my wife. As I watched players live out their dream and the one I would have like to, it was very, very hard as the pain seem so fresh and like I was reliving my experience all over again. I have moved on but not past this struggle. "March Madness" is a tough time of year for me every year. It has been about 18 years since I have been out of college but it is still tough. I would go for walks sometimes and the only thing that I could think about was what I would do differently. I would have went to prep school for two years at Virginia Union while continuing to get better and better and then went to a big time college basketball program and because of my talent, I would have most likely gotten drafted or at a minimum made a team.

I am thankful for what I have achieved but it has been tough and a struggle.. I know that I would not have had to struggle so much to achieve after basketball because my N.B.A. career would have set me up for a good job perhaps commentating for ESPN or something because I have the personality and I speak publicly so well. It is tough asking, wishing and wanting someone to give you a yes these days. The higher you achieve, you tend to get "yes" more often.

In closing, they say that the 2 biggest decisions one will have to make in their lives is choosing a college and and choosing a wife because they both will determine your future. I got the wife part right but the college I chose was a HUGE mistake.

November 18, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 18, 2014

I am the reason my parents stayed married, completely unhappy, for over 18 years. I regret the fact that I never paid enough attention to realize they didn't want to be together. Sometimes I wish they would've gotten a divorce when I was a little kid like they wanted to, instead of staying in an unhealthy marriage until I went to college. When my own father came to me and told me that I, his only daughter, was the one reason he stayed with my mom, it hurts. And when your own mother says she has been living with a man she HATES for years just so see me grow up "normal", it absolutely kills. Nothing hurts more then feeling like a broken relationship is all your fault... and it still hurts me to this day. I regret the fact that I am the reason they were so unhappy for such a long time.

November 17, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 17, 2014

I regret not being a good enough mother to my children. My husband is deployed and I have two young children, 5 months and 2 years. I regret yelling at my toddler this morning, not being strong enough when they need me the most. I regret being angry at God, and losing my faith. I just regret who I am, and wish that I was different.. and better.

November 16, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 16, 2014

My regret is that I believed my biological father's lies to the detriment of my relationship with my step father.  I never gave him a chance, and I missed out on a lifetime of having a dad.  My biological father was and is a flake, my step dad has been there since I was 2, and I didn't give him the time of day until my 30's.  I missed so much.

November 15, 2014

SECRET REGRET OF THE DAY: November 15, 2014

Honestly, I regret dropping out of high school. I couldn't stand my over protective mother and moved out on my own at a very young age. sure, I'm doing fine for myself now but it was so much of a struggle. I wish I knew, your stoner buddies are not going to be your friends forever, especially if you grow out of that phase. I truly thought I would smoke weed for the rest of my life. But Guess what? It slowly weened it's way out of my life when I never expected it to. I now deal with anxiety, not to mention even years later simply trying to cope with real life situations NOT high. I am in no way an anti-weed person. I know how it helped me cope with every day struggles. I remember the angst I felt and how weed helped that all melt away. It was lovely, at the time. But I eventually had to get a job where I couldn't be high at all time and it took a great deal of time to come out of but now that I have a good paying job and a boyfriend who was never into that life style I still reminisce the good times, I still wish I could go back sometimes, but you know what? When I look at my "friends" and family who still smoke weed everyday; living in haze for my whole life just wasn't what I wanted and I can't even imagine being that way nowadays. I live by a strict motto of "to each is own" but I feel like if I had known what I know now I would have saved myself a great deal of struggle.