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45 comments:
If I could change one thing, I wouldn’t have ended that time in our lives so early. We were as close as two sisters could be, and when I left I caused you more hurt than I thought possible at the time. I left to get married way too young to a man who did horrible things to me. When I tried to re-kindle the relationship I had with my sister, I found you put up walls, not willing to be hurt again. You turned to friends who dragged you down and you struggled silently through your own relationship problems that I could not be there to help you through, as a big sister should. I honestly believe that your life is the mess it is today because I left you when I did. The way you dealt with the pain, the way you lost direction in life after having so much drive—this is my fault. If I could go back in time and do it over again, I would.
Female, 29
If I could change one thing, I wouldn’t have ended that time in our lives so early. We were as close as two sisters could be, and when I left I caused you more hurt than I thought possible at the time. I left to get married way too young to a man who did horrible things to me. When I tried to re-kindle the relationship I had with my sister, I found you put up walls, not willing to be hurt again. You turned to friends who dragged you down and you struggled silently through your own relationship problems that I could not be there to help you through, as a big sister should. I will always wonder if you would have finished school and gone after your dreams had I not added one more layer of abandonment to your life. Had I myself continued to go to school instead of letting myself get off track by getting married, I think you would have found the strength to complete college—if nothing else, you would have had me there as a companion, and I think that would have helped you immensely. As it was, by the time I went back to school, you were no longer as close to me as we once were.
29/F
Please use the second posting about the two sisters, if you use it at all. I explain it a little better at the end of the second one.
Female, 29
I regret telling you that night I was raped. I lied. I thought that if i told you I was raped, you'd love me more.
I regret leaving with that person and lying to you, while you waved "good bye". I was not raped. It was my fault. I am sorry.
F/25
I regret ever allowing you to enter into my life and providing me with a glimmer of hope that I could finally find someone to be with and start a family. You just want to have a one night stand and nothing more.... you don't see me as a person with feelings, you see me as a means to an end and then something (not someone) to discard like a used tissue. I never lied to you and only cared about you and now I regret ever laying eyes on you.
I regret ever letting you have the upper hand in our relationship and making me feel like I am useless and being compared to a stray puppy. I wish I was strong enough to let you go and I could just walk away.
26 female
I wish I was stronger and stood up for my morals rather than letting things go to far because I thought that's what u wanted in a girlfriend. Now things are over and I feel broken and I can never forgive myself. I regret that u still mean so much to me and I mean nothing to you. Female 20's
I regret cheating on you. I had my first one night stand at 16 and it scares me how easily I did it. I'm also scared that I don't really love you and that I shouldn't be putting either of us through this. I moved and we should be done but I just can't throw you away. I regret being too scared to be honest with you. I regret being weak and unable to see myself without you. I wish I had the courage to just walk away from you but I don't. I'm scared I'll never find anyone else and I'll realize too late that you are the person I'm meant to be with. I regret leading you on with all these doubts on my mind. I wish I knew myself better and could decide what I really want, but I'm too scared.
f/17
I regret leading you on. You think our relationship is forever, and I don't tell you otherwise, even though I think it'll be over soon. I'm sorry I'm going to hurt you so much.
f/21
I regret ever talking to you. I regret asking your name, if you were in my class. I regret being your friend and I regret giving you everything and doing everything I could to help you. I regret even looking at you. Call me childish, do whatever you want. Hurt me more and more, just throw it all back in my face. Being the most influential person in my life, you are my complete and utter regret. I will never forgive you.
F/18
I regret that after 7 years Im still in love with my bestfriend. I can't get past the feeling. Seeing you with other people hurts me and I can feel jealously wash over me. Your like a drug to me. I have to spend at least a part of my time a day speaking to you, and if you don't reply or answer I'm waiting for you. I do silly things just to find somebody else that is remotly like you. I wish sometimes I never met you so I can spend my life differently than what I'm doing now.
Female 21
Many, many regrets - that I always seem to pick the wrong man to love and marry, likely due to my childhood which had no fatherly love and my mother was distant from me and favored my sister. I was the black sheep and proved it. Have been sad, depressed and lonely my entire life, which is a long time as now I have reached 70.
Wish I had done more with my life,had the ability but was always looking for someone to love me. Now sometimes don't know who I really am, was told one time that I could make anybody like me, have seen you go into your act. Did not realize it was an act.
I regret that I cannot let go of the anger I feel for my ex,we divorced over 30 years ago,he treated me so shabbily,humiliated me so much,lied about me to his family about the way we met so that they would side with him,he blatantly admitted that to me,he also lied about who I was as a person,swindled me out of a large sum of money,he was a rotter through and through,he was insanely jealous and controlling,and isolated me from my friends,stopped me studying to improve my career because he did not want me to think "I was better than him",did not want any children and told me that it was because "I would be an unfit mother",would not let me wear white when we got married because as I had slept with him I was no longer "a virgin" and would not have flowers either.The reason he married me was because my father had sold some land and had offered to give me a share of the money,I realised this later.I looked him up on the internet recently,hoping to find him on the death notices,I found out that he never remarried (it would have been his third marriage),but he is still living in the same town with a woman,who no doubt does his bidding and is taking care of him,I find this so unfair,how can men like him find partners,I found it hard to trust any man again after I finally got away from him in spite of his threats of suicide.I wanted him punished,instead I find that he probably never spent a single christmas alone.
I regret hating to be alone so badly that I jumped into a relationship with "him". My life has been pure unadulterated hell since that day. I don't love him...I loved the idea of someone loving me. I've been treated like shit since day one, but of course I continue to let it happen. It doesn't help matters that I keep picking the "fixer-uppers", the ones with problems so serious that there is no coming back from, but time and time again I coddle them and lift them up while they tear me down. I've known you for many years, and not once did you even remotely hurt me, and I know you never would. You were the only one who treated me like a human being instead of a piece of shit. You are my soulmate, and I have absolutely no doubt about that. You are the only man I ever truly loved, but distance and circumstance keep us apart. I regret not telling you I loved you when there was opportunity for us to be together. I guess I suck at timing too. I go to sleep every night thinking of you, and I wake up every morning wondering if you are thinking of me too. I love you Neil, I really, truly do. In all honesty it breaks my heart that she is there with you instead of me, and that she doesn't take care of you the way you deserve to be taken care of. I pray that someday we will be together, but until then, I will never be far from your heart no matter what. <3
34/F
I regret that I seem to be the person people run to when they need to share their secrets with someone. What do you people think I am? I am not here to listen to your secrets, especially if it has anything to do with the people I'm close to! Especially because I'm not willing to let it ruin my relationships with those people!
Why did you call me to tell me about the person you were with? About the fears that said person might be sleeping with your sister? They aren't by the way, they're just really close friends seeing as she respects the woman he's in a relationship with.
However, the person she THINKS he's in a relationship with isn't YOU!
Why tell me you're together out of the blue? I only see him with the woman he brings home during the week, not you. I honestly did NOT need to hear about him cheating on a woman who LOVES him to death, a woman he supposedly didn't want to ruin it with; thank you for being the bearer of bad news, for making me see him in an entirely different light than I'm used to (Not to place him on a high fucking horse!).
I regret that I answered my phone, and that I fear that I can't tell anyone, not even the woman who loves him, that he might very well be a cheater because I don't want any bad blood between me and my brother-in-law... Let alone my husband.
F/20
I am a 19 year old girl.
I was homeless at the age of 16.
I regret selling my body in exchange for money, food and a roof over my head.
I regret working in the red light district when i was only 18..
It haunts me every day. I was homeless for 3 years.
I thought i was my only option and it still looks like it was my only option.
But it left a scar on me it's something i will never forget.
No one knows this about me..
Only the people that took advantage of me.
I lost my virginity when i was 15 to my boyfriend of 2,5 years.. when he left me at 16.. i was lost and wasn't welcome at my parents house anymore..
I started hanging out with the wrong people and drinking that's when i got raped for the first time..
at a certain point it got so bad that the guy was actually 'selling' me to his friends.. and thats how i ended up working as a professional prostitute at the red light district.. Thank god i don't do any drugs because then i would probably be dead by now.
I'm from holland, and these thing don't usually happen around here the system isn't really built for cases like mine. thats why i couldn't find the proper help..
I found out the hard way.
The biggest regret of my life? Not telling anyone how i really feel, closing everyone out and being alone. I feel so bad and i'm the only one that knows,i smile everyday at school yet in the nights i cry myself to sleep. I just regret everything that i've done to hurt anyone near me, mostly my mom by being so mean to her. I don't live with my mom, she lives with her boyfriend and i live with my auntie, it hurts me to see how much i break her heart when i ignore her being here. I just say 'hi' and get back upstairs to do some random stuff on my computer, they won't even hear or see me until she leaves again, i walk back downstairs, say my goodbyes and run back upstairs.
Me and my mom don't have the best relationship as you see, i miss my old mommy. The one who cared about me, the one who called me daily to check how my day was, now she only calls to fight with me or when she needs something. Basically, i lost my mom.
I regret that I've never tested who is the biological father of my daughter. She is acknowledged by the person I wanted to build a life at the time.
Somewhere I think she therefore developed anorexia.
Now I feel that I can no longer tell ...
I regret thinking i could do stuf on my own when people where there for me. I treated them cold and heartless. But in the end I need those people. I regret every single word i said that hurt people that much, to let them think i don't care about them. I do. And I feel so lonely because of this. Sometimes I just wish I could let those people know how much of a heart i have but because of what happend to me in the past i can not trust people that easily. I truly regret this and if i could i would still tell those people how i feel and give them the love and respect they need. A girl 19 years old.
I regret being born to the family i have. My father abandoned me at an age so young i cant remember him. My mother went on to have 5 other children, none of whom know there father, and they are all different.
I contacted my biological father when i was 18 years old. he pretended to not know who i was, we both knew the truth. I got the message.
My upbringing was full of abuse, neglect and torture of such, thankfully most people can only imagine.
Against all the odds, i have become educated and worked hard to become a respected wife and mother of two beautiful daughters.
I regret that i have nobody. My "family" are so dysfunctional that they refuse to acknowledge my existence. I wish i had nice people who cared about me and my children and am continuously resentful and jealous of those who have that and take it completely for granted.
Despite all of my accomplishments, i regret that i belong nowhere.
I regret telling him how I feel or felt about him. It scared him away. I told him because I really really liked him. I couldn't stop thinking and talking about him. I drove everybody nuts. It wasn't a secret anymore. Everybody knew, except him. Now, 1 year later, I love him. We've had sex. And I'm so weak that if sex is all I can get from him, I'll be satisfied with it. I have no other choice, right? I've prayed to God many many times to help me. I've tried to put my mind into other stuff. I've tried to like other people. I've even tried to date other people. But the bottom line was and still is.. I love him.
And I've never felt this way for a guy. I liked guys, but I've never really loved him. And the one guy I love.. I knew I was going to chase him away, but I took a risk. And I lost.
I regret not calling my grand mother back. I was on the phone with her but we couldn't hear eacother beacuse there was allot of noise where she was and she lived at a retirement home and needed help with walking. So i told her i would call back the next thay but i didnt. 3 days later my mom calls me and tells me my grand mother past away. I never told anyone because I feel so stupid for not simply calling her back so what would people think of me. And the worse part is i told her i was goin to call back but i dont even know why i didn't call back.
19, female
I regret marrying you. I moved too quickly in our relationship. I got pregnant unexpectedly. I love our child with all my heart and don't regret that part of our relationship. I have resented you for so many years that it has built up and killed the love that I had for you. I resent the fact that you brought kids into the marriage, but left me to care for them. I had kids also, and they are far from perfect. I have tried to teach your kids the things they were never taught. I am screaming inside!! I can't talk to you because it always ends in a fight. I don't want to hurt you, but I am struggling for air....I wish you were able to parent your children without fear. They have no consequences because you don't want them to go live with their mom. The casualty of your fear is our marriage. My mind races, I survive day to day by taking care of the entire household. There is no passion, there is no romance, there is nothing to build on. The foundation of our marriage is crumbling. I wish you could see how your blindness has affected me. I feel hopeless. I have thoughts of hurting myself, so you can wake up and realize that it is serious. I regret that I was blind in the beginning also. I finally found someone I could trust. Now what?
My biggest regret is not leaving my ex at the time. i let him abuse and beat me for 1,5 years. and after all of it was over, i didnt have enough proof to get him lockedup. i regret never hitting back. i've told a thousand people just to get it out of my system, but nobody knows the whole story.
F 20
I regret that after I was raped I let my parents tell me that I didn't tell the truth. Because they believed the rapist above their daughter. End I didn't had the courage to tell my parents to tell them they where wrong.
Female,22
I regret letting you go. You were the first one that I had ever been with and I think I just wanted to see what was out there, but looking back on it now, I loved you. I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone else. Maybe not a strong sexual passionate love, but the sort of love that would lay theier life down for the other. Now it has been over 10 years since I have talked to you. I wonder how you are, and if you are happy. And most of all I wonder what my life would have been like had I stayed.
I regret that I stayed with you. When you found out I had an affair I should have left. You begged me to stay, you forgave me (I didnt ask), we went to marriage counseling, we both agreed to change our behavior. You did for a short time but now you have gone back to ignoring and taking me for granted and the trying is over. I only tried a little. I had changed so much by that time that I could not change back. If I had left 3 years ago when things unraveled we would be on the way to being adjusted to our separate lives. I regret that I stayed in this life that is less than what we both deserve.
f44
I have a senario that bothers and has bothers me since I was 14 years old and secretly threw out high school.
I regret not bringing Z to prom,I regretted not having the guts asking her out to prom as now i pay the price of heartbreak and seeing her going away , I wish I could turn back time. Eventhough her face has started to fade away in my memory, I still miss her when im sad and down as I remembered that she always made me happy
I regret cutting myself. and that I wasn't there when my friend did it en needed help. I regret that I never stand up to my parents.and help my brother to get off the drugs.
Female 15
Hello I'm from the Netherlands and look every day Dr.Phil
I regret my teenage years.
I used a lot with it.
I am one year have been mistreated and I am also raped.
If I had not encountered. Had I had perhaps better now, I much regret the stupid things I thanks to him I must suffer ... Still I comb with its consequences, I am regularly called by my ex, and he regularly has me Learn to look and found me!.
He even has a restraining order that he not hold. What I've been through my whole life influenced, I would not normally found only on the street a pity that people look at me weird or something, I immediately get strange thoughts
The positive of everything now is that after so many years I finally dare to seek help!. And hoping that it's wounds heal slowly perhaps go!, And I hope for the people who also have made them, that they also help to look ... It is a limit over which you must, but it is ultimately your own life!
I regret ever being diagnosed with mental illness. My illness has cost me every valuable relationship I've had, with best friends, with family, and with the only girl I ever really loved. I don't let people close anymore because so few people understand mental illness. They don't understand that I'm not always in control of what I think, or how I feel, or what I do about it. They don't understand what drove me to contemplate suicide so many times, or the 4 attempts that were bad enough to land me in the emergency room. They think that doctors and medications are always the cure-all, end-all of depression and mental illness(I also suffer from PTSD). I keep in how I feel, because I'm ashamed to feel this way. And I know it's not anybody else's fault, it's just the society we live in.
But more so I blame myself. I blame myself for who I am. I really try to make things better for myself, but everything feels like quicksand around me. The more I try to pull myself out, the deeper and deeper I sink. I'm already back to that point. Everyday I can feel the life just being squeezed out of me. I can barely force myself out of bed to go to work or to go to class or to make it to my appointments. And I'm scared, because I know what's comes next. It eats at me constantly. I know that all it takes is one bad day to set me off. All it takes is one wrong thought or action for me to end up either back into that emergency room or in the morgue next time.
Please, if you know somebody struggling with depression and other types of mental illnesses, do your best to be supportive and understanding. The alternative, just ignoring it, hoping it goes away never works.
M-22
I regret not being able to leave you.
I've been through hell and back with you over the last three years.
I've been to councelling for my breakdown, I've lost a baby, I dealt with being abused during my childhood - you were there, every step of the way.
I let you into my life and I shared every secret I have, that I have never told anyone else.
I gave you everything I have.
I gave up everything I HAD.
And you throw it ALL back in my face.
You think I would lie and cheat on you, you think I'm going to leave you for the first guy that shows me some attention.
I know that you're insecure and unconfident. I know that you had a rough childhood.
SO DID ALOT OF PEOPLE!
I know I need to leave you.
But through it all, I can't stop loving you.
F/21
I regret one day, not going onto the pattio in the morning to have breakfest with you, as I has promised. I never did, even after several times of request, just to talk outside while the sun came up. Im sorry I was never able to truely show how much I loved you, and how much you ment to me. I wish you could see me graduate, and get married, and make jokes. I wish I could go out with you on the patio again, as I always wish I had.
Female, 14
ok you guys are probally going to hate me (like everybody) because im probally not on the right website i dont know if i am but i had to look up something so that my dad cant see because he would hit me,my biggest regrets are not killing myself im 15 years old and i have a girlfriend of 11 months and i just found out she had sex with my best friend,my dad hits me everytime i try and do something i have 3 numbers in my phone book one is my girlfriend wich i debating on leaveing but the reason i cant is because shes litterally the only person ill talk too two is suicide hotline wich is 1800 suicide for anybody else who needs it 3 is my mom... my mom hates me and the last time that she actually called me was 6 weeks ago ive attempted suicide 3 times and it has never worked. it almost like im meant to suffer god doesnt want me just to die already i go to a school but everybody calls me a freak,emo ,gay,dumb because im diffrent the only thing keeping me from killing myself is this, this is my last resort im probally not on the right site i googled counseling online and this came upi apoligize if im at the wrong spot but i really cant let my dad see me on something like this.
Cameron Please see a doctor or something everyone is unique and beautiful in their own way. I felt like this when I was your age but I got past it I had no one but now I'm stronger and love life. God doesn't want you to suffer he can help strengthen you. I think u are stronger than you know please get help talk to someone. God loves you. You are never alone. And you will someday meet someone wonderful to you that will love you deeply. Never give up. Female 26
Cameron you are not alone please read next post please get help I really care about you and you will get past this stay strong. Female 26
I regret being addicted to facebook. By making 1 little mistake, I lost the access to my account and that made me so stressed/aggravate for the last 5 days. What makes it worse, facebook's help page is not helping. Facebook don't have a phone number for me to call or a live person to speak with. I feel so doomed without my facebook, I'm isolated from the news, information and resources. Especially, from all of my friends all over the world.
30/Doomed lady
I regret everday i spent with you go to waste. Penie I love you. I regret being to scared of what other people would think of me because im bi. You taught me a really important lesson not to care what people think. I wish I would have realized it before now because now i have no chance your engaged and im happy for you. You deserve to be happy.
When I saw you across the room, you were looking at me with your hypnotizing eyes. I immediately noticed you and thought you were so beautiful. When I realized who you were and that I knew you, I was so pleasantly surprised and happy. I never felt the way I did with you. Talking to you was a great experience in itself. The time we spent later was the best I've ever spent with anyone. I never knew what it meant to want someone until you. There are so many things I wish I could say to you. But I had to walk away and "do the right thing" even though every single day since all I can do is think of you. I miss you, I want you and I wish I could talk to you and see you and spend time with you in ways that we can't right now. I wonder if you think of me at all. Every day I think about you and want to get in touch with you. I regret so much walking away from you. I wish I could explain what you really meant and mean to me. I wish you could have seen what could have been and how much I would have loved you. What does it mean when every day, not one day passes that I think about you and miss you?
My biggest regret in my entire life is what I am living right now. I regret that I ever entered this man's life and let him enter into mine. I regret letting him take away much of who I am. Everyone tells me I deserve much better. One day God will allow me to flee from this hell on earth you have brought to me. You have no idea how to be a man. This has affected me emotionally, spiritually and physically. You should be ashamed at how you treat people. One day my prayer will come true: that I will get away from you for good. Then I will be free.
i regret leaving my wife of 15 years and three children. at the time I was hurt and felt that her mistakes were unforgivable. I found another and foolishly in my pain confided in her and found safety, and what i thought was infallible love. I couldnt have been more wrong. all debts in this life will be paid sooner or later.. my just rewards for the damage i did emotionally to my x and the hurt and pain that my children suffered at my selfish hand are being paid. the woman that i left my family for is a vile venomous creature.. and i deserve every bit of the hell my life has become. we will soon be apart, however the cold harsh reality will always remain: I had an amazing life, with an amazing partner with unbelievably amazing children.. and I walked away from them.. looking back I cant understand why or how i did what i did.. I truly hate the man I am for it. for any man who feels the grass may be greener.. it is not. you will regret it you will hate yourself for it, you will pray for death as i do.. I am still healthy, handsome and financially stable. but i am a worthless shell of what i once was, I am as wretched as the creature i fell for.. dwelling in a life of agony that i created and deserve. God Please forgive me for my sins, May my former wife and Children forgive me for the wrongs that i have committed against them, and may i one day learn to forgive myself.. please grant me the opportunity to make things rite with them.
I regret being overweight. My best friend tells me I just have a negative self body image but every time I eat something my dad will always question me: "Is that on your diet?" My friends all say God loves me just the way I am and tell me I look fine but I don't feel fine. I feel ugly. I regret not accepting me for how I am. I regret letting the thoughts of my ex creep into my mind "You're fat" I hate that he has his "perfect" g/f now and I wasn't good enough for him. I regret eating all the time I just want him back. I hate my body so much I feel so ugly. I hate the numbers on the scale and even though I have lost 8ish pounds I still don't see a difference. I regret I can't make anyone happy with the way I look, especially myself. I just want my confidence and happiness back. I want to be skinny again and I want him to want me back.
Female 20
It's been 25 years and I am still in love with my best friend. I love him more than he'll ever know and I miss him so much it hurts. In all those years my love for him has never changed nor has the pain of losing him eased.
It is as if my love for has been hard wired into my soul.
I tell myself the person he was is gone and is never coming back, he never loved me (but he DID!). It doesn't work. It feels like a part of me is gone.
He's married now and I like his wife, of course she doesn't know about our history together because he's "not gay!"
I wouldn't do or say anything that would hurt their relationship, because that would hurt HIM and I CAN'T do that. I stay out of their way.
He treats me like I am just somebody he use to know... but every time I decide to move on with my life he calls or e-mails me and I'm right back to square 1 again, it's always been that way. The rare times we meet, I feel alive again, like my heart starts beating again, I feel complete and whole again. When we talk it's like we're a part of each other. When he leaves it's like I stop functioning normally, a piece of me is missing.
There's never been anyone else, there can never be somebody else (he knows this.), it will NEVER NEVER happen, it's IMPOSSIBLE but I can't get rid of the feeling we were meant to be together. But I know we can't.
I MISS HIM SO MUCH!
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